they'll also often accuse me of being uncaring. these accusations lose much of their comedic value though if their uncaringness is at too much of an extreme. any mentions of electric shocks to my body and many many other things, are routinely overlooked, denied, or used for further targeting. inevitably words lose all value except inasmuch as they can be used against me, and the significance of my experiences is immeasurably diminished even to myself, and then I also have to accept these accusations and live by them. meanwhile, they take this opportunity to increase all the tortures inflicted on me, and also exploit their uncaringness to expand control of more of my life (they only take advantage of communication, and so I must also think the right thoughts around them to make them go away). and everywhere I go, they all act like they know me, and are all the same.