although they tell you nothing but lies, if you believe the lies they police you in very perverted ways, which is supposed to give them some sort of moral authority.

by thinking something, I thereby become obliged to them in some way. it’s then their role to involve themselves in my thoughts and prevent whatever I was thinking. but because by thinking I am then obliged to them, they are thereby justified in being assholes for involving themselves in my thoughts.

the police-state uses its human-like element to reinforce its machinery. the agents drain everything from you, material as well as human-like resources. you are shunned, ostracized, ridiculed, and made to feel unwelcome, uncomfortable, unsecure, and guilty. meanwhile, society is doing terrible things to you, and does not acknowledge that. this wears you out, and when you are at your lowest, they will suddenly dig into your past and make you feel guilty for something. when they do this, it’s always on cue, and always for evil purposes. whenever they give you anything, it’s always for the sake of using that to exploit you at some future time. this is the human-like element of the police state.

I look forward to when they finally manage to destroy absolutely everything in my life, including my resolve not to believe their lies, because that would be their cue to just admit to being a bunch of nazis.

anything that’s happening in my life is immediately everybody’s business. they always involve themselves in everything, and so everything always dies.

the insects keep swarming until they wear you down. the herd has every weapon at its disposal. there's unity, synchronicity, the police. be careful not to give away your secrets for them to expoloit! or they'll just have to know them without your consent. they have the advantage that they can tell you complete bullshit with the most sincere looking faces, because they themselves do not even know how full of shit they are. or they can take the 'we have concerns' approach (threats). they can tell you you are unwell, because it's against the rules of the game to actually talk about what's blatantly happening in front of you, as they never do except in rhymes and metaphors. so today I received a few minor bites, in the form of faces. when those without emotions pretend to have emotions, what am I to make of it? they can't be criticizing something having to do with the truth, or they wouldn't be pretending to have emotions. if they're criticizing something having to do with bullshit, then there's no reason they should know what I look like (or who I am). they just wanted to bite, that's all. it may give me some pleasure if someone took a match and just set all these vampires on fire.

it seems this is going to be a constant, repeating, and neverending occurence, many times a day, every single day, forever. I will be living a very public life, as I have been doing, much to my resistance. it is very unpleasant to have companions to my thoughts, especially coercive ones. a thought is not a gesture, an invitation, or a means of communication. words are means of communication. thoughts are not. when I am inside my house and I lock the door, and take every other precaution to keep them away, not only is that indicative that I don't feel like having company, but that I am trying very hard to avoid having company. If I build visible walls around me, it's not meant as a gesture, but could be taken as one. a thought, however, of any sort, is definitely not a gesture. it's a funny thing about thoughts. thoughts could themselves vary. to the thinker, one thought could be very different from another thought. to someone else, all the most different thoughts, opposite thoughts, in all their great variety, are all just one and the same thing: not their business. words, on the other hand, are a mode of communication. that's precisely what they are, a mode of communication, unlike thoughts. if whenever I say anything, the world must then mirror whatever I said, it is a method of killing the only mode of communication that can be agreed upon: words. if a mode of communication is to be precisely that, a mode of communication, it must be agreed upon as a mode of communication by those communicating. for example: if society insists that my thoughts are a mode of communication, and I do not accept that my thoughts are a mode of communication, then thoughts cannot be a mode of communication, because communication is impossible if those communicating cannot agree upon the mode of communication. on another note, words, which are a mode of communication, can be restricted, but should not. censorship can take many forms. if I am intimidated by authority figures, for instance, because I commited an act of speech concerning authority figures, it is the use of fear and coercion to discourage me from commiting further acts of speech concerning authority figures. if the world must mirror your every act of speech, it is an attempt at coercing you into only talking about pleasant things, and not things that are detrimental to your safety, such as the police.