as I wrote a few posts before the most recent one, I don't wish for them to comment, I just bring it forward that it would have been extremely unlikely that I would not have received a single comment on any of my very many writings by now, against my wishes. what I wish for them to do is buy my art so that I can make a living, but they don't seem to be going in that direction. and so, the best thing they can really do is leave me alone, but they don't do that either.

the pieces of shit act like they know me everywhere and use this to police me as a society. they don't admit knowing who I am, but they act like they do know who I am, and they use this to police me as a society. if I mention anything about them acting like they know me everywhere, this is even used against me. however, every time there is anything in my life to be policed or exploited, they will emerge from every corner and use it against me that they know who I am and spy on everything I do. also notice: I am being shunned. I am targeted for my writings everywhere I go, but it's always overlooked that I am being shunned, and that if anyone is able to read anything I write, they would also be able to see that I am being shunned.

they become coercively involved in the very process of me writing anything against them. they don't read any of it, but inflict punishments correspondingly. same for walking on the street, thinking, and anything else I do.

they've been acting like they know me everywhere I go long before there was ever a single picture of me to be found on the internet. now there is a single picture, it's about a decade old, and in my judgment no one would be able to know with absolute certainty that it's me when they see me on the street based on that picture. if anyone disagrees, they can feel free to leave a comment.

also, I don't often read the news, and if I do I don't make this publicly known. it is my observation that everything in the news is made up and manipulative, every single day, every single story, no reference to any particular story or to anything that may be in the news today. if I wanted to say anything about anything that's in the news, I would specify this. and it would have to be pretty important, because it seems our self-proclaimed democracy cracks down on me whenever I do that.

I have written quite a lot. I have received a total of 0 comments. I don't wish for them to comment, but I have not disabled comments on any of my writings, and I would certainly prefer comments to punishments everywhere I go. they target me for my writings, but they don't seem to notice such very visible things as 0 comments, or often quite visible methods of targeting by big brother. the thing about advertisements is that anything I say can be dismissed because I'll be told that my writings are scanned in order to determine the advertisements. it takes some amount of intelligence to see that these are targeted to me in very personal and big-brotherly ways. 0 comments though, for a lot of writings, is quite miraculous. in a democratic society, if I don't disable comments, it would have been extremely unlikely that I would not have received any comments by now, scathing or whatever. however, the agents only inflict punishments on me everywhere I go, do not use words, and act like they know me everywhere I go and use their informal relationship with me to police my life.

things that occur inside my house, things that I think, and things which are legally kept private, will be met with retributions from strangers. whatever stings necessary will come from whatever direction necessary, to ensure the continuance of me devoting my every moment to them. there is nowhere outside of their reach. they exploit my thoughts, my senses, my body, and everything they can.

I try to avoid going outside, because there are too many nazis everywhere. then they try to coerce me in various ways to confront them more often. for instance, on those increasingly rare occasions of me going outside, I will be subjected to increasingly harsher disapproval of my life from them, and so I will lose confidence in my own judgment and will have to keep going outside in order to check if the nazis approve or disapprove of my life today.

ideology is treated as accepted truth, while observations and experiences are treated as ideology. I always have to apologize for honesty, and for being alone in honesty, and apologize to parasites. I also have to apologize for describing a mechanical world.

if they want elaboration of anything, they don't use words or leave comments, but inflict punishments. And anyone can be brought at me and be made to say or hint anything that is necessary for the benefit of the collective at any time they're required to.

The pulls and stings of the herd are always arranged to enforce the agenda, and every bit of their humanity is always employed to demand the acceptance of truths that don’t make sense. And they’ll use whichever facets of the collective required to pressure or coerce you in ways which they will then use against you.

if after they have told so many lies, I don't trust them, they will punish this by telling more lies. and because they punish me severely for their lies, then I must fear not trusting them.

when I don't write anything, then when they target me for my thoughts, I know that they are targeting me for my thoughts. but when I do write, they can severely increase punishments of my thoughts, and do so in the name of punishing me for my writings. re-reading my writings helps me realize that I had never actually written anything that would merit the punishments inflicted on me 'for my writings'.

censorship can be accomplished by means of trauma, conditioning, and force. it can be accomplished by everyone everywhere acting like they know who you are, everything you do being very closely monitored, while everything demands your consideration without considering you. it can be accomplished by smear campaigns, constant intentional misinterpretation of everything you write, labels ensuring the continuance of these misinterpretations, and mobs that attack first and ask questions later. it can be accomplished by means of physical punishments from big brother. it can be accomplished by everything you write being treated as a set of instructions by an army of androids that is fixated on your every move and targeting you in masses. it can be accomplished by everything always being reduced by force to the stupidity and non-being of those around you, and any attempt to distinguish yourself from them results in brutal rape and the intensifying of every violation. above all: everyone everywhere acting like they know who you are, everywhere you turn are more of them fixated on you, and the hand that metes out punishments is always very close by.

They’ve also been brutally policing my thoughts by means of auditory torture for many years. This obviously has caused much trauma and drastic psychological effects. The pieces of shit, however, only use it for further targeting. The only way to be around them and keep them away from my thoughts is by making noises, which they target by means of various moralities and by means of various contexts, and if I don’t practice any such methods of defense, as I know well they show absolutely no mercy, and still target me by various moralities, perhaps because I don’t say anything around them, seeing as they are brutally policing my thoughts by means of torture and it is very difficult to concentrate on anything they are saying.

when speaking with any of them, they'll be the same ice-blocks they've always been. they'll try to make you think that this is in retribution to you being what you are in response to them in contrast to what they tell you about themselves. they arrange contexts around you to try to make you feel like an asshole, and then try to coerce you to become an asshole like them. meanwhile, everywhere you go everything corresponds to you and everyone acts like they know you. they'll make suggestions and try to pressure you in various ways. they put you in double bind situations, expect you to constantly prove yourself to them, and expect you to play by the rules of asserting whatever freedoms they take from you, rather than doing what you wish to do with freedoms you are supposed to already have.

they are all identical to each other, and they're all the thought police. the disapproval of these pieces of shit means nothing, and I could only hope that they had actual feelings, so that when they're disappointed in me their feelings can actually be hurt. they target me for my thoughts, and they exploit the ambiguities of mundane situations to target me for any self-confidence. they are always the aggressors. they act like they know who I am everywhere, are unable to admit to this, and they police me as a society. they are all pieces of shit. if I pay attention to their half-truths, they use that to prey on me. what attachment am I supposed to form to these parasites in order to live up to their expectations while they leave me for dead? I would prefer if they weren't made to look like people, and then expect me to give a shit if they approve or disapprove of my life today.

there is no reasoning with parasites, who operate only according to the logic of parasites.

they often will create situations where they will convince me that I have some moral obligation to a 'good cop', while the bad cop will take advantage of this and rape me mercilessly. any defending myself against the bad cop will be taken as an attack against the 'good cop', while the latter will of course overlook anything being done by the bad cop and will focus on targeting me as well, but from a different angle.

They torture and abuse you in many ways which they instantaneously deny, so that they can also forbid you to respond to these. you must live under the tyranny of their abuses as well as their lies, and over long periods of time they use this to try to coerce you to practice denial in your thoughts in order to accommodate your living conditions. and it will also be these pieces of shit to target you for your thoughts if that does happen.

they'll also often accuse me of being uncaring. these accusations lose much of their comedic value though if their uncaringness is at too much of an extreme. any mentions of electric shocks to my body and many many other things, are routinely overlooked, denied, or used for further targeting. inevitably words lose all value except inasmuch as they can be used against me, and the significance of my experiences is immeasurably diminished even to myself, and then I also have to accept these accusations and live by them. meanwhile, they take this opportunity to increase all the tortures inflicted on me, and also exploit their uncaringness to expand control of more of my life (they only take advantage of communication, and so I must also think the right thoughts around them to make them go away). and everywhere I go, they all act like they know me, and are all the same.

the theory of monads is accordant and all-inclusive. it doesn't permit special cases: special in position or in essence. I don't deny the similarities, but they deny the differences, which are very crucial. I am in an existential position where I don't have sufficient space to exist without falling into the traps. sometimes this also has to do with plays on words and limitations of language. solipsism is also explainable as an attribute of this theory, rather than having to do with the actuality of a situation. the collective makes constant efforts to consume and assimilate.

the society that tyrannizes over me is very intolerant when I question the notion of 'equality'. they falsely claim to be humans, and this for no other reason than using the notion of equality to outcast and manipulate me. when the tyranny of the majority is used to justify doing to me everything society tells me is wrong, it's funny that I always have to be the one justifying myself to them, as they have a monopoly over the truth. I often write very long lists of the things being done to me, which are very serious things, but I am to expect no mercy and no understanding from anyone. if I try to fight for my rights, they have plenty of ways prepared to thwart that. if this was a society based on equality and anything close to what it's claimed to be, they'd be able to say: well this is just some guy with an opinion that we don't like, but since there are so very many of us and only one of him, the chances of any one of us ever running into him even once nevermind more than once are very small, and we don't know what he looks like anyways, so it's not a big deal. but when everywhere I go, every member of the population goes out of its way to suppress my perspective, my right to have a perspective, and my right to use my eyes or my ears, this is already not a society that's based on equality, and any criticism they make in this direction is irrelevant.

the police-state is so set up that criticizing the police-state amounts to nothing more than falling into the hole that’s created by their unitary lies.

everyone always tries to associate you with their causes. first, you are told things about yourself and your identity and the nature of this world which you may not agree with, and then they hold it against you that they tell you these things.

anything I say is narrowed down and collapses into some category and some leech boid will suck it all up for itself, for which I’ll have to pay next time I go outside, although in fact no one reads anything I write, they just make faces.

often some boid will declare that it is more than a boid and demand to be treated as equal. what’s expected is for me to overlook that they actually seem to have more rights than I do, and that they seem to be there for absolutely no other reason than taking freedom away from me. if a bunch of identical, replicated, simulated people without emotions or suffering wanted to take credit for not being such, it might not bother me so much if I didn’t know they were doing it for no other reason than exploiting me in any way they can.

when I go outside and the whole collective appears much more disapproving of my life than they did last time, is this supposed to mean anything? their very nature is that they always turn against you and stab you in the back.

speaking against the institution is regarded as the expression of a desire to get arrested.

many things can be questioned about rights, but those who are the system have no entitlement to do so. whenever some boid is given such title as 'professor' or 'psychiatrist', and then uses its authority to question my rights, it always so happens that its ulterior motives are well visible, and its legitimacy refuted.

would it be considered a form of censorship if one finds it very difficult to enter any website, look at anything, talk to anyone, or listen to anyone, due to intentional psychological abuse constantly inflicted by the entire collective by any and all means, while no one listens to you, and you often get attacked by a mob when you express an idea? also helpful is using a facade of 'capitalism' to justify what is actually totalitarianism.

1984

if anything is true, then it’s that whatever the thought-police says is very meaningful. for instance, if the thought-police tells you that there is no thought police, this is very meaningful. if the syndicated police-mob tells you that your life is good, and they all say the same things, then it must be true. how should you know better than them if your life is good? there is a great number of them all saying the same things, and so they must be right. you are told that you live in one of the most free and wealthy countries in the world, and so it must be true. it is your observation that everything is synchronized around your thoughts and psychological experiments are conducted on you every single day year after year, but there is not a single mentioning of such a thing being done in all of history, and those who do these things to you tell you that these things do not occur, and so they must be right. you receive electric shocks all over your body around the clock, but this is just a matter of opinion, and you are the only one that holds this opinion, and so you must be wrong. you are attacked by great mobs every single time you go outside of your house, and they are very critical of everything in your life, and they seem to know everything you do, and what you look like, however, there is food in your fridge (although it’s rotting because the fridge is not working right now), and so your life must be good.

on principle they will always do the wrong thing at the wrong time. they are like infants, but they look like full grown people, and they use that in the service of acting like infants with the weapons of full grown people. when you're down, they'll always kick you. when you are viciously attacked, they will all participate. wherever they are in your life, they will be in your life in all the wrong ways. and they are always in your life, no matter how much you don't want them to be.

although they tell you nothing but lies, if you believe the lies they police you in very perverted ways, which is supposed to give them some sort of moral authority.

by thinking something, I thereby become obliged to them in some way. it’s then their role to involve themselves in my thoughts and prevent whatever I was thinking. but because by thinking I am then obliged to them, they are thereby justified in being assholes for involving themselves in my thoughts.

the police-state uses its human-like element to reinforce its machinery. the agents drain everything from you, material as well as human-like resources. you are shunned, ostracized, ridiculed, and made to feel unwelcome, uncomfortable, unsecure, and guilty. meanwhile, society is doing terrible things to you, and does not acknowledge that. this wears you out, and when you are at your lowest, they will suddenly dig into your past and make you feel guilty for something. when they do this, it’s always on cue, and always for evil purposes. whenever they give you anything, it’s always for the sake of using that to exploit you at some future time. this is the human-like element of the police state.

I look forward to when they finally manage to destroy absolutely everything in my life, including my resolve not to believe their lies, because that would be their cue to just admit to being a bunch of nazis.

anything that’s happening in my life is immediately everybody’s business. they always involve themselves in everything, and so everything always dies.

the insects keep swarming until they wear you down. the herd has every weapon at its disposal. there's unity, synchronicity, the police. be careful not to give away your secrets for them to expoloit! or they'll just have to know them without your consent. they have the advantage that they can tell you complete bullshit with the most sincere looking faces, because they themselves do not even know how full of shit they are. or they can take the 'we have concerns' approach (threats). they can tell you you are unwell, because it's against the rules of the game to actually talk about what's blatantly happening in front of you, as they never do except in rhymes and metaphors. so today I received a few minor bites, in the form of faces. when those without emotions pretend to have emotions, what am I to make of it? they can't be criticizing something having to do with the truth, or they wouldn't be pretending to have emotions. if they're criticizing something having to do with bullshit, then there's no reason they should know what I look like (or who I am). they just wanted to bite, that's all. it may give me some pleasure if someone took a match and just set all these vampires on fire.

it seems this is going to be a constant, repeating, and neverending occurence, many times a day, every single day, forever. I will be living a very public life, as I have been doing, much to my resistance. it is very unpleasant to have companions to my thoughts, especially coercive ones. a thought is not a gesture, an invitation, or a means of communication. words are means of communication. thoughts are not. when I am inside my house and I lock the door, and take every other precaution to keep them away, not only is that indicative that I don't feel like having company, but that I am trying very hard to avoid having company. If I build visible walls around me, it's not meant as a gesture, but could be taken as one. a thought, however, of any sort, is definitely not a gesture. it's a funny thing about thoughts. thoughts could themselves vary. to the thinker, one thought could be very different from another thought. to someone else, all the most different thoughts, opposite thoughts, in all their great variety, are all just one and the same thing: not their business. words, on the other hand, are a mode of communication. that's precisely what they are, a mode of communication, unlike thoughts. if whenever I say anything, the world must then mirror whatever I said, it is a method of killing the only mode of communication that can be agreed upon: words. if a mode of communication is to be precisely that, a mode of communication, it must be agreed upon as a mode of communication by those communicating. for example: if society insists that my thoughts are a mode of communication, and I do not accept that my thoughts are a mode of communication, then thoughts cannot be a mode of communication, because communication is impossible if those communicating cannot agree upon the mode of communication. on another note, words, which are a mode of communication, can be restricted, but should not. censorship can take many forms. if I am intimidated by authority figures, for instance, because I commited an act of speech concerning authority figures, it is the use of fear and coercion to discourage me from commiting further acts of speech concerning authority figures. if the world must mirror your every act of speech, it is an attempt at coercing you into only talking about pleasant things, and not things that are detrimental to your safety, such as the police.