I don't know what's worse, that they coerce you into doing things that it's really not their place to coerce you into doing, or that they use so much fucking brute force while doing so.

the populice are not there to help you but to police you. if you're a victim of rape, you'll be the one to fear further persecution. they find molestation to be appropriate behaviour, but inappropriate to talk about. they are very serious about rape, and will put up no small fight if you resist it in any way. if you try to build walls, they'll take advantage of you in other ways. you'll find the police-herd making fun of you for your thought-crimes. they come from all directions. there is the brute force of physical torture, eye torture, ear torture, and physical rape. the first priority is to protect yourself against those. then you may find yourself attacked and criticized by the nazi herd for trying to protect yourself.

the point of view that they would like me to accept as superior to my own: what would someone who is spying on my life be thinking?

tyranny of the television: an elaborate war is declared upon you if you do anything but be a spectator. it’s a comedy, but the television is quite serious. on those rare occasions when it does tell you something worth listening to, it does this at the expense of not taking into account that you are a living thing.

after years of relentless thought-abuse, I tried to shut them out. I built a wall, and they had to destroy it. they gave me no alternative but facing the truth, and I figured if they were at least that reasonable, the truth could actually speak more in my defence than the lie, though it will not shield me as well against extreme forms of brutality. so I tried that, and they had to destroy that too. when you are living around these hollow idiots, everything stops to have any meaning.

when the propaganda you are expected to believe is just so crude, this works in favour of propaganda. the agents flatly deny there is any propaganda, and tell you that it’s your view which is crude. likewise, their methods of exploitation and torture are so idiotic, that all they need to do is just deny it’s even happening, and then they can tell you that you are the one who sounds idiotic.

the way to combat constant physical punishment is through blunting of awareness. then they manufacture events to exploit you. everyone always takes their place.

and what’s the point of monitoring someone, if you don’t also police them?

the bankrupting of language: trying to reason with boids.

everything is restricted. why? because they are a block. I do something to one piece of shit, and another piece of shit will take revenge on me for it. I do nothing to anyone, and they’ll instigate the bullshit, and then take revenge on me as a block.

anything that’s happening in my life is immediately everybody’s business. they always involve themselves in everything, and so everything always dies.

when I go somewhere, and all these pieces of shit are involving themselves in my life, I begin to wonder what great crime I have committed, and I find myself puzzled. then I realize, they are just telling me what to do, they have a problem with me just walking on the street.

when everything is policed, then anything you do is an act of preying on the police-state. if they monitor your every move, then you are actually preying on them by moving. if they police your thoughts, then you are preying on them by thinking.

I always used to think they were better than me, because they have faces. then my life became absurd. they would punish me for having thoughts that are too rich or figurative, they would punish me if I was ever friendly to any of them, and I definitely learned that fun is one thing they will not tolerate. and their methods of punishment were not unsevere, and they were not quick to forgive any of these things either. the only ones allowed to have any fun are the oppressors, who are incapable of having fun. their idea of fun is violating my civil rights, and then denying that they do it, and backing up each others’ lies in perfect synchronicity. or to keep doing the same things over and over again in full harmony and solidarity until it begins to drive me crazy. or telling me how great they are and how I simply have not devoted enough of my life to try to win them over, and then treating me to an icy chill when I give that my all. they like to encourage me to try things, so that they can thwart them by means of their omnipresence, solidarity, identicalness, and harmoniousness. now I am being shunned, which does not stop them from condemning me for not having enough of them in my life. if I say something ‘to’ them, it will have the type of impact that it would on an insane idiot which cannot be insulted or reasoned with, and will just do whatever it is you say they do. and then tells you to explain it better. nor will it leave you alone. and so, I am expected to accept that if I say something against them, that I’m really just asking for them to do it more. if I don’t renounce my logic, then I’m just being illogical. they dress up as every facet of society, and every last one of them is an agent of the police-state. they treat you to abuses that cannot even be found in movies or novels. then they deny there is anything unordinary about this society. everyone says the same things, because everyone is an agent of the same police-state, but then they tell you that because you are outnumbered, then you must accept that the things they do to you they in fact do not do to you. and if you ever step out of line, they will be there to call the police on you.